I changed and it's awful

I noticed that I started doing something completely unacceptable to myself. I've lost all of my passion and love to drawing, because something really bad happened. I stopped drawing for myself. I was so focused on gaining popularity and feedback that I forgot about the main purpose of creating anything. For me drawing became a duty, obligation, not escape how it used to be.
Since I can remember I expressed myself through art. Nowadays you can't see me anymore in my pieces. It's hollow, aimless and unwated. What's funny I didn't even get money for anything I drew. Everything I sold was a design... for 5$. Because I really needed money at that time.
Just wanted to let you know that it wasn't me.
This account is my 3rd of 4th one, generally I'm on deviantArt since 2009. And I never felt so wrong before.
I need to stop, I have to stop and clear my head.
Thank you so much for all of the support, I'll probably be back.

- Vris